My seed order is here! But the ground is snow covered!
Have a beekeeping meeting coming up ~ to help refresh and motivate me
have yet to order the beehives (that will need assembled)!
Ready for more sunshine! Ready for springtime! (I think)
Tired of WANTING to be lazy!
And BEING lazy!
No drive, no ambition!
Is it ~ Lack of exercise? ~ Lack of sunshine? ~ Stress? ~ Diet?
My first relaxing winter: I am not running around constantly,
no more out of the house job,
no more scouts sucking my every breath,
now located in beautiful surroundings, room to roam and create.
Yet my desire and drive is missing.
I think it might be the winter blues.
Feeling guilty for my feelings, not sure what to do to change it all up.
Think of self as a "cup half full" person.
Afraid that once spring arrives, I will have wished I did more creating!
I do not feel depressed. Just a really long blahhh.
Have had no real desire to read my uplifting, inspiring blogs until I forced myself today.
WOW! Organizing seeds, garden planning, sewing, knitting, cooking . .
. . . . all that I am about ~ you all are sharing!
Sooo, I thought I would post a quick seed picture and "fake it" til I am ready to make it again.
Changed up the blog to feel more inspiring (not thinking it is so much)
And it has turned into a pity party.
This is like showing my sink full of dirty dishes on this blog.
But I am real, and I choose real over fake any day.
So I shall overcome this, and then be back in the swing soon.
Because I do have wonderful things to share ~ just maybe not in the happiest frame of mind to do so.
I will work on my list.
I will work on me.
Hugs, Jill
